I've drunk the social death. Lethal in it's conception, the suspense flutters the potential of pain as it swims it's way down, and warms your belly, makes your eyes glow, and leaves a bitter taste in your mouth. Sweet fantasy what are you? The dancing conversation moves towards me and I stunt it's growth. Fumbling on the sickness that entered threw me, my eye shines blurry as I fall and I know I said many things. But I heard none of it.
I just wrote this, I think it's what I feel drinking will be like, lol. idk. I'm so sheltered. Next week, I'll have a drink with a few buddies of mine. Not gona get drunk though. I always had a fear of drinking. I just feel like I'm the type of eccentric, melancholic, socially awkward person that would be heavily susceptible to becoming an alcoholic. *Your so positive John* Yeah, I know. But it's true. I feel the truth of it simmering underneath my ribs, ready to burst a regrettable poison. Dignity is not with me in a future with alcohol involved. lol, I don't know why I'm so weird about it, anyway... it's just new things. That's all. New things scare me. Whatever. It'll be fun.
VicariousE
._. could've swore you knew what you were talking about in the first paragraph. When drinking in company: drink little, speak little, hear much, see much. Ohwait, that's business/bar-room etiquette. Heh, yup have fun, but drink not with thine eyes.. just hang out and drink often, but little sips.
beastkid7
I've always been very intuitive about things. This is why I don't try many things, it's like I already know what will happen. At the same time.. I don't know what will happen so, I should try, haha. Also, I've been told it effects you a like being really tired does, mentally. and I know how loopy I get when I'm tired. :) Thanks for the advice, V!