Ignorance scares me I think
The thought of being, not seeing
Being blind
It swells in me this abstract fear of not being enough
Not having what it takes
hmmm ....the classic fear of failure is it?
I cannot tell its a smothered bell in the dark grey reassesses of my mind
Then the gong of retribution sounds, a loud shaking thunder
It says something must be dun, something must be won
Or something will be sacrificed

I know there is getting up
But I'm not getting up
I want to get up
but I'm down
I need to get up
but I'm still on the ground
Peirce to the earth by an invisible fear
A decision in me ...unknown to me
Sub consciously

I've had epiphanies
I've have a bit of clarity
I've got all the motivation in the world
But they arn't connecting in my brain
in this way feel insane
I know I forced the play this game
But so many do the same
and for this I am ashamed

Unlock my sanity
It feels like there are so many doors here ...in my mind
Locks Locks Locks
I need a key, It feels Like I cant see, inside of me.
I feel so weird because I simply cant function the way others do
They way others just know ...they just KNOW
how do you just know
Have you opened your doors and have you found the key
Have you sailed the ocean of the mindful sea
My minds eye is shattard, oh my tools of irony
that my trade an artist be

I will this key FIND
I will pull out this SPEAR of FEAR
I will take my mind
switch to manual to manual I will care
distroy auto. There is no mindlessness
no slow only full throtle
My potential feels infinite ..I can feel it in my soul
I just Gota find that CAPABLE ...I guess manual here we go

Sorry I havn't been on for a while. My internets down. (Writing this on a slim connection some random signal). I'll try to update crap right now while I can ...

IN OTHER NEWS!!! SCOTT PILGRIM VS THE WORLD!!!

...is quite possibly one of the sickest movies I've ever scene! Its got EVERYTHING!! amazing action, hawt chicks, lovemance, funnyness all wraped up in a bundle of Comicy, videogame, Indie Music madness!!!

See you gota make up words to describe this movie. :D

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I wanted to share the pleasure of this beautifully animated show! NJOY!

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Also I've Been whatch'n COWBOY BEBOP!!! ...good stuff man. ALL Right here.

Hollow is the feeling of lonliness inside
a feeling I thought I'd never feel
I wouldn't feel
I shouldn't feel ...that
I shot my heart out to a stranger
To a beautiful stranger
she said, just what I needed to hear
She was just what I needed to have
my wall had never been broken like that
then she left
.....just like that, needed to go, steps away.
Plesent shatterd ice had become ...broken pieces of me on the floor
and then I realized she had taken my heart with her
I hardly new her
I sunk into myself ...I hardly knew her
But she said ...exactly what I needed her to say. She WAS ...exactly what I needed her to be.
I think something I had been searching for had startled my soul all to fast
When will I learn

But this hollow feeling in my chest, is as if my heart is teleporting back way too slowly.
Women go around cursing men without even knowing it.
Or maybe I'm just like the spirit, falling in love with every girl I see.

Lesson learned I guess.

been practic'n alot too.

http://beastkid7.newgrounds.com/art/

I am so PUMPED for this new show.

Teen Titans isn't back but ...I smell somthing .....Better???

I have to say it looks pretty tasty. Im feel'n it Cartoon Network get back on track.

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Dude I love teen titans to death ...but I think this is better. I havn't seen it yet.

I'll never forget you raven .... .or mAAAYbe I wont have too. ooOOooOoOO

ight night fools!

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Say something
mean something
face running
to mean someone

Break it, you broke it
You care too much to say you care
Your stuburness ...instills that fear

Its not funny when you CANT help someone
years set in there ways
Alpha heart to pay

There beginning is there end
emotion to them a trend

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AM I SMARTER CAUSE I DONT THINK I AM
broken to pieces on your casual thoughts
life changing is a simple decision for the flavor
no foresight to all manors of behaviour

Sold out to yourself
type of miniature wealth
and pouted face be me
with cringed eyes you see

but why listen to me
I MEAN REALLY, why listen too me
I thought you were the trusted smart
your role to lead us out of dark

imperfection strikes your mind
just in time, to make her mime

time flies
I hope she'z back

Death of her
all heart attack

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Ooo you tricky freak
all thos deaths bleek
KILT them all with slight of hand
faded it till it was "just a sham"

Blinded be the smartest man
the smartest man to ever live
but wat good is it if take not give
But life forces FORCES wrong on you
Hold it up, STRONG are you

Can I blame the sightless face
all light covered left no trace
when light be what we NEED in side
Instead life sends us to BLEED the ride

Makes life for thos so bleek
Ooo you tricky tricky freak

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I'm going to do what I do
would all to pay attention too
Not the greatest thing
Shock the soul and let it fling

Cringe my mind because it stopped
your all in my bout lets all rock
destination there is no land
don't believe the lies bout sand

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OK so I'm making a 3 part art piece. The first is a red eye.(as shown) The second is Blue womens lips. And the 3rd is ....welll I don't know. I've thought of doing Brains or ears ...Baby ears. I know I want it to be Yellow. ...there all close up shots.

I want them together to be interpreted into many meanings. Life cycle ...Mortality ...morality.

HELP PLEASE.

What should be my next human subject of interest?

how do you not see the teenage disease
the one that bites you between the knees
that makes you spit stupidity
and act like a blind animal
Common sense outside the window
WHAT THE HELL
all around me
ALL AROUND ME
Is there something wrong with me
This sudden wisdom that I do not see
that I know better than my parents
Yes that I see is wrong in me
I delayed the fire of independence so Strong in me
smothered it till it became a faint yearning in the back of my mind
Now to spread my wings Im loosing time